Drink and the Devil had done for the rest.

fifteen men on a dead men chest by ME (yes, as in myself)

good god, making a chant (essentially, as there is no official song yet) into music is hard, i'm currently working on a bass walk for it, putting in the rest shall be difficult...

I've been working on characters for my comic in my sketch book, and one thing i find helpful is a reference. i know it's one of the basics of drawing, but i never really used it till recently, and honestly, it helps alot. anywho.

i've learned another thing in the learning of Ayn Rand, but this principle actually stands against Rand's philosophy (finally, i've stopped with the brown-nosing :D). my theory is that in order to be happy, one must find a path that entails no suffering. what do i mean? people think that money is happiness, so what do they do? they suffer through a job for it. what they end up doing is flipping their causes and effects around. the way it should be is cause:job, effect:money. but the way most people put it is cause:money, effect: Job (note, this part was stolen from Rand). but why? why the flip? because people think that somehow happiness comes from suffering. it's in every major religion, you suffer to find happiness. why can't i be happy with my job? why can't i be happy with my college? instead of taking the path most taken, i want to find a path that'll make me happy instead of suffer.

so here's a tool for you all, use these two tools. ask you self why your doing something and what's the effect of it. if you find that your cause and effect are switched around, do something to fix. and always ask yourself, am i allowing myself to suffer for something? if you are, then maybe you should consider changing it.

but, finally, always remember this. what ever you do in life, OWN IT. what do i mean? i mean that if you decide to give to charity, do it because you WANT TO, not because of a moral obligation or "higher calling". if you're doing something because you want to, you won't have to ask yourself why, you would already know the reason.

that is all.

This Jesus must die

From Jesus Christ Superstar.

I had a revelation today in church (no, not an epiphany, I'm still atheist), why in the hell do people worship jesus on the cross? Do they really believe Jesus to be a martyr? What Jesus did, according to their beliefs, is defeat death. so how did they decide on a Jesus dying as their symbol? to make themselves feel bad? to be humbled? sounds like a load of poppycock to me. when i think of somebody victorious over something, i don't picture them leaving to go fight the battle, i picture them returning home victorious.

If you think about it, death was the easiest part. when he was gone for three days, he had to fight to the bowels of hell itself in order to finish what he started. his death was meaningless, it was the means to an end.

that's all.

PS: Atlas Shrugged is starting to become clearer.

Russia's Greatest Love Machine

Rasputin by Turisas

i guess i'm going to use lyrics as titles from now on... sounds like fun.

so, recently, i have added a new skill to my already astounding repertoire, the ability to throw a pot. my currently successful project to date is about 3 inches tall and wide, but i plan to make a much heftier one tomorrow.

Second off, The recent choir concerts were not up to par with our norm, which is odd, because earlier this year we were above par (I adore Mr. Luntz (lunz?)(yes, it's manly to say adore)). I blame Ms. heminafighajk (can't remember name)(that's how little of an impact she has had on me) and the asswipes who don't give a damn.

thirdly, Atlas Shrugged is getting better and better.

and pertaining to Mrs. Ayn Rand, I have come to realize that her philosophy is very love-hate, either you hate it or you love it. she seems to speak to people who create because they love to create.

and... that's about it... not alot to say.

My week

has been strange, to say the least.

my grandmother hates Ayn Rand, which seems strange and yet makes sense to me. because of this my mother won't stop asking me what the book is about, and i have to keep telling her half truths, because i know that she wouldn't be able to handle it.

the strangest thing i keep hearing from my friends is that Ayn's style of writing is boring. i can't help but disagree. I can truly feel the utter emotions that Ayn attempts to convey in her writing, whereas, my friends instead see a long boring drawn out paragraph that simply reiterates itself. but that is where it's power comes from, that simple, soul-crushing inability to feel happiness again, such is Ayn's power in writing.

anyways, this week has been mostly uneventful, i'm almost done with One piece, 180 pages into Atlas Shrugged, and my mind is already blown with it's amazing.

Night time Awakens...

My ferocity.

I would like to reiterate a point i made a while ago, that being, I no longer like to stand behind something when i no longer feel it.

what i no longer feel, is religion. It used to be that i would get excited about god and jesus and what not. but, about a year and a half ago, i saw the atrocities being committed in the name of this "God" and i no longer felt any pride toward the name, instead, I questioned, first off, where the hell people got the audacity to use this "God" fellow, who is supposed to be peaceful, to hurt other people. It never made sense to me, but i still believed in "God" at that point. but then, something happened... whether it was this sort of fading of emotions that i experienced, but on my confirmation day, when i was blessed with the gifts of the holy spirit, I no longer believed in god. I stood, staring face to face with this sort of emptiness that i knew once contained this god, and yet i felt happier than i'd felt in all my life. that's when the true atrocities around me came into full bloom. and I awoke on the other side...

and this is what i learned...

The Argument of Christians Against Homosexuals
Since the early days of the church, people had been going around, banging some wierd verses in peoples faces, such as this:
1st corinthians, 6:9-10

"Do you not know that the wicked will not inherit the kingdom of God? Do not be deceived: Neither the sexually immoral nor idolaters nor adulterers nor male prostitutes nor homosexual offenders nor thieves nor the greedy nor drunkards nor slanderers nor swindlers will inherit the kingdom of God."

First off, i love this play on words "Nor male prostitutes", good stuff, it implys that females are ok :D.
anyways, back on subject, this is the "New Internet Version" of the bible, which means that these people with preconceived ideas of its meaning, put this crap in here. now, personally, i trust older stuff, and i trust shakespearee, so lets see what the good ol' king james version says for this verse.

Know ye not that the unrighteous shall not inherit the kingdom of God? Be not deceived: neither fornicators, nor idolaters, nor adulterers, nor effeminate, nor abusers of themselves with mankind, Nor thieves, nor covetous, nor drunkards, nor revilers, nor extortioners, shall inherit the kingdom of God.

hmm, interesting, there is no mention of homosexuality here (well, Effinimate simply means overly feminine or too sophisticated (judging that St. peter hated the rich, i'm going with the latter)) which is strange, right? the bible couldn't contradict itself? and never on the same verse.

how bout this one?
Leviticus 18:22
Thou shalt not lie with mankind, as with womankind: it is abomination

yet, according to the bible in John 3:16

For God so loved the world, that he gave his only begotten Son, that whosoever believeth in him should not perish, but have everlasting life.

so, according to that, any sin i have is washed away if i believe that jesus died for my sins and so on and so forth.

so then, why do these people attack homosexuals?

Hell, the Mormons (who are a minority themselves) forced the attack of Proposition 8.

and if these people are christians, do they not also belive in mortal sin? if so, lets measure the 2 out.

Homosexuality: Mortal sins: Lust: because they show love for each other (Heaven Forbid), they must be lustful.

Protestors: Mortals sins: Pride: they don't wish to lose the definition of marriage because they are proud of what it means, instead of being humble. Greed: some protestors motive is greed "they're a bunch of dirty women and girly pretty boys sleeping with each other, so why should they get my tax benefits? Wrath: Protestors around the country are abusing homosexuals emotionally, verbally, and sometimes even physically.

it's dispicable...

(PS: in my first paragraph, i capatilized god sometimes, and sometimes not... this was on purpose)