I have no idea

ok, so, first off... second post of 2009, w00t.

next, i'm only 200 pages to go in Atlas, so that's pretty damn bopping.

thirdly, for the past several months i have liked someone (what? james, we thought you were over this stuff (yeah, well, shoosh)) and i have known that the liked someone else. which was completely fine. it was a confusing unofficial relationship they had going on and she wouldn't tell me the name of the guy she liked. well recently she's announced that it was official and no more iffey crap, so i decide to ask who it was. and I was prepared for any other answer than the one I received. I thought "I could have conceded defeated to anyone else, anybody else...". He's a lying, douche-bag, womanizing, FUCK-CUNT and I absolutely hate him. If it were anyone else in the world, i would've gladly been fine with it... but whatever.

I'll do deadly sin stuff next post, i'm too tired to think right now.

speaking of thinking, i think the change that i was going through is over. in fact, i think it's been done for a couple of weeks now. I now am the best that i can be (for the present) and wouldn't have it any other way.

I would like to impart a piece of knowledge that has entered me recently. the reason why Altruism is the root of all evil. A system where a person is punished because they can do something and another is rewarded because they can't. that is sick and wrong.

the one thing that Ayn does in her writing is create ridiculously blunt statements. such as, the antagonists of her books preach this idea, why give praise to someone worthy of praise, it is a waste of time, they are already worthy of it, so why should i give it? praise those who aren't worthy, those who can't do, those who are incompetent, for they are the ones who need it.

when i read one of the antagonists say something along those lines, i thought it was ridiculous, that nobody did that. then i realized that i used to do it. I used to say nice things people, to praise them, because they needed it. and so, I ahve made it a point of fact, that from now on, i will only praise those worthy of my praise, so that, I allow whatever they did to have it's full and true value.

when you praise those who are unworthy, you demean what those who are great stand for.

-James

Quis custodiet ipsos custodes.