Today

Ok, so i just came out of my first anxiety attack since one year ago. I have very little idea behind it's reason, but i think i know it's cause. i came up with a very frightening idea during choir and i think it caused myself to snap, if you want to know about it, please ask.

secondarily, I think I am attempting to think so hard that reality becomes obscured, and i'm not quite sure why, i think it might have to do with the fact that my application for AM will be due next week, I think this moment before the next step in my life is scaring me.

anywho, that is all