I couldn't think of a title.
today i experimented with forceful movement, making every single movement take up a larger percentage of my mind, make it all deliberate. It started when i stood up in lunch and just stopped moving. (I'm fairly certain Katie Moen gave me a couple of weird looks, and i'm fairly positive she know questions my sanity (just like everyone else)) The ridiculous feeling from not moving (whilst standing) is quadrupled when you start moving with that same deliberate thought process (naturally i walked at about 1/4 my normal pace). it was awesome to experience.
I've started to act around my friends like they were family (thus them thinking i'm a jerk), now with most people, this would mean they trust their friends. this just means that i'm treating with the same annoying backwards logic that i use around my parents to piss them off :D. Sometimes i don't even understand what or why i do things, but all of my movements are becoming far more deliberate, and i think i'm becoming a far better person for it :D.
One of the reasons that i've been called a jerk recently is that one 9/11 i had the audacity (yes, the audacity, the aw mika gika gah) to say that it was irrelevant. naturally, I was given a fair amount of guilting, but i still stand by what i said, the past is irrevelant, the past is the past for a reason. the families that were affected have already adjusted (technically, it takes 8 days to acclimate to any new situation), and will they might still mourn it, why in the hell should i? it didn't affect me, nor has it to this very day. I don't care anymore, mostly because of it's ripple effect, the death of thousands of innocents shouldn't have been payed back by the death of a single innocent anywhere else. when we went to Afghanistan, we were justified and in fact held back in what we should have done. but when we shifted focus to Iraq with 9/11 as our banner, we were no longer justified (no al-qaeda there) and thus the name of 9/11 became irrelevant, just a empty name that politicians used to justifie their selfish motivations. thus, irrelevant.
About Me
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- Being generally crazy all the time, i keep my insanity at bay. the voices tend to quiet when you talk for them, strange , eh?
3 comments:
this is quite possibly the most sad thing i have ever read. since when do we ignore the past? since when do we not mourn when we see our fellow human beings in pain? and since when does ditaching yourself from everyone around you make you a better person?
everytime i talk to you now, i'm more and more disgusted.
I agree with Katie quite fervently on this one, James. Do you know, and I mean REALLY know what it's like to lose someone very close to you? I'm sorry if you have and actually feel this way, but if you feel that the past has no effect on the present, then you can't feel any pain (and this is not something to be applauded). I in no way condone the war in Iraq or anywhere, but that has nothing to do (and you made this point yourself) with 9/11.
Think of it this way: 9/11/01 for millions of people is not a political Trump Card, it's a day when innocent fathers, mothers, daughters, and sons lost their lives in an act of multiple murder suicide that was committed to make other people fearful and paranoid.
Since when is that irrelevant?
I guess what i don't understand is why do i have to make myself seem sad or mournful when i'm really not, I don't upkeep appearances (never really have) so why should i pretend to feel something that i never really did. i personally feel that anything that is the past is irrelevant (naturally i know this is not the case for most (such as you Jenna)) minus the causes, such as the sacrifice of my liberties in exchange for a feeling of security. to quote the great Benjamin Franklin "Those who are willing to sacrifice temporary liberties for temporary safety, deserve neither liberty or safety."
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