change, she is fickle

wow, this makes me quite sad. well not sad really, but it makes me realize how fast change can occur when you a resigned in the ideaology of change and are only changing how you're being changed.

I read through my last couple of posts, and realized how much in a different direction i'm going, well not really a new direction, but i guess how far i've come to the end of this valley of change. last month i was apathetic to emotion, let it hang out and die. now, i've come to realize that doesn't need to deny his own emotions, but know what is his own emotions, and the emotions of the people around him. last month i couldn't have cared less about anyone around me, now I understand that you have to be willing to give your life for friends, but never give your friends your life. That be selfish doesn't mean ignoring the emotions of those around you, but instead helping them with only the intent that you wish to help them at that moment, not to gain their trust or sympathy, and certainly not to make yourself look like a better person. in order to do something, you must stand behind it whole-heartedly. doing anything half-assed is basically not doing it in the first place.

change is a great thing, and i can't wait to see how far i come by the end of it.